Wednesday, 21 November 2012

Slow, slower and slowest

This is really slow work day. At least the next time I stop dialling it will be home time. Unless I pause momentarily to get some water, that won't be home time. Best not stop to get water then otherwise I'll get my hopes up that it's home time; that would be disappointment. Instead I may have to die of thirst... love an exaggeration.

The sea that is my thoughts is now considerably more tranquil than the last time I wrote a blog. So that's good news if anything.

Very much looking forward to going home. Home. Tea. Gym. Bath. Bed. I do like to relax on a Wednesday evening. Plus I've been uber tired recently so I think a decent film and a good nights sleep would be just what the doctor ordered. Speaking of doctor...

I've been back again regarding my migraines. Told hormonal-type medicines are a no go as they just make them worse but the lack of migraines means I don't need constant treatment for them which is a super thing to hear. Hopefully won't be getting any more migraines now.

Got an hour until I'm able to go home. Feels like this hour is going to drag out to the abyss.

I'm counting down the days until I've got some time off work. Twenty two sleeps to go which seems like a life time today. Least we're on Wednesday. Keep reassuring myself it's nearly the weekend, this is helpful. Got a lovely Saturday planned too which will be awesomely good I hope.  I would like it to be awesomely good. Who wouldn't. Christmas markets and lots of meat. We're going to Bem Brasil.

Going to whack out the sparkly shoes next week. Get them worn in for my Sister's wedding, got two weeks to do it. Reduce the risk of blisters on the day. Nobody wants that. Although I expect I'll take them off at some point and become exceedingly merry as the day progresses. Pass out under a table and hope for the best, after the meal of course. Nobody wants to face plant their soup. That would make an awful mess all over my prettiful dress. I did not mean that to rhyme.

Anyway, half an hour left and then I'll be on my way home. Hopefully not stuck in two hours worth of traffic, it will ruin my beautiful well thought out plans... yeah right! haha.

Monday, 12 November 2012

Off the face of the earth

Don't ask me where I've been the last few months, it's been a bit hectic. I've had lots of laughs and more recently lots of tears. Time to get back to a happy medium of contented amusements. I'm sure it won't take long for that to happen, but in the mean time got to grin and bare the emotional torture of being messed around and all the nonsense of thought that goes with it. All seems to make sense to me now, but I think I'm making it make sense to suit myself because I never got any answers. I never seem to get any answers. Just a whole lot of "I don't know" and "I'm not sure" but to me there is always an answer to justify the means. Some people just need to man up and tell the truth rather live their pathetic existence in a world of decite and baloney. Grow up, yeah?

Have to say though, it's changed my attitude. I would like to say for the better, but only time will tell. I'm very much hoping for some happy distractions over the next month and a half. I think I have every weekend covered between now and Christmas, with things that ought to be a barrel of laughs. I'm taking a barrel to fill with laughter and see if I can get that achieved.

I've only got 4 weeks left in work before I have some time off and I'm really looking forward to the break, most of the time off will be a bit crazy but I have a few days to relax and enjoy myself. Plus, it's coming up to my birthday which will be good. Still debating whether or not I want to go to the works Christmas do, it's on my birthday, I'll have to see what the plan is, with it being in Manchester and my living quite some distance away. I do usually quite like a plan.

Ever get the feeling that you have too much to say and too many questions but you know full well saying and asking won't achieve anything? Frustrating; trying to keep a calm mind and attitude but being fiery tempered, it's harder than it ought to be to achieve. I would quite like to be nice and serene and calm, on the outside it would appear so, much like the left. However, it's more like the one on the right. Crazy rough seas.

Anyway, it's pretty much time to stop dwelling and start expelling. I was trying to find words that rhymed there, just to add effect to the purpose. Hope it was achieved.

I do enjoy slouching with my feet up on the seat opposite me whilst I'm in work, seems the ultimate in lazy.

Let's just hope this year ends quickly and I don't have to endure any more rubbish. I'm a sensitive soul, though I seem thick skinned...

Onwards and upwards.